Oh Lord, not that!
by Toni Ullom
"But, but, but, if I do that I have nothing to fall back on. You
know the situation and if things here don't change, I'll need this
to get a new start Lord" This was my reply. Several ministers had
told me, God hears your prayers and your family will be made whole,
just keep calling it done. But being the self sufficient person that
I am, I wanted to make sure "IF" he didn't that I had something to
fall back on. I was working one day and as I did I was praying about
this and that, including this lost loved one in my life that this
revolved around. As the bible says, Where he is speaking of Abraham,
call those things that be not as though they were (past tense).
Romans 4:17
(As it is written, I have made thee a father of many nations,)
before him whom he believed, even God, who quickeneth the dead, and
calleth those things which be not as though they were.
So here I am calling those things that be not as though they were
and still holding on to my security, and what do I hear? "Where is
your trust? Do you not think I can do as I have promised? Am I not
enough, your still holding on to your own means? That money could be
used to pay a debt" This is another subject he has dealt with me on.
Did I go and take the money I had saved back "JUST" in case out of
the bank? No, I still hung onto it for a few weeks. A fear swelled
up in my throat at the thoughts of loosing that security. The past
had not been very kind to me. I felt sick at my stomach at the very
idea of letting go. Finally I did go and use it on bills to move
toward that mark of financial freedom. Since then some wonderful
changes have begun to take place in my family. I know in time my
family will be completely united with God and his will. Do I still
fear the lose of self reliance, from time to time I do. That is when
I stop and remember that morning he asked me where was my trust.
Then I just take deep breath and say thank you Lord for being a man
who can not lie, Numbers 23:18-20
God is not a man, that he should lie; neither the son of man, that
he should repent: hath he said, and shall he not do it? or hath he
spoken, and shall he not make it good?
I believe your truth over my circumstances and fears. That eases the
fear and my world comes back into alignment. One of the hardest
things I have had to deal with is letting go of myself and learning
to lean on him. I believe everyone should do their part but once God
has taken that care on, its time to give it up, especially if he has
sent a promise through a true man of God. when I say a true man of
God I mean one who spends lots of time with him in prayer, fasting
and worship. Not a thirty minute once a week man . You don't know
God if you have almost nothing to do with him. Any man can tell you
what they think you want to hear, but a man of God tells you what he
hears from God himself, there is a difference.
