Why can't I just be satisfied with what I am now?
By Toni Ullom
I've often wondered why I can't just be happy to go to church on the
weekend and sit on the back bench? Absorb the teaching and go home till
next week? I see others do it all the time and they seem perfectly
content. So why do I let it bother me. I suppose its two part. The first
being that I feel deep inside that no matter how much I do for Jesus it
would never begin to re-pay him for his sacrifice on my behalf. The
second, I don't like seeing people suffer.
Sometimes when I see someone that I know is lost or hurting, its as if
my heart is going to burst from the sadness that takes me. I loose my
breath, can't breathe and the tears follow. All the while dealing with
my own failure at doing the keys God left for us. Not that I don't try
but in some area's I fail again and again till I am so disgusted with
myself that I say, I'll never get this done and I think of giving up,
but there is something inside me that won't let me just quit. Yes I have
tried to quit on a lot of things concerning God, but like an addiction
that I can't control, there is something inside me that says get up, try
again.
Thinking back to when I was a child, that compassion for those in need
was great. I can remember always trying to reach out to other kids who
were hurting, neglected and lonely. I suppose I have always felt a
connection with God even as a little girl. I think about the compassion I
feel, knowing how bad it hurts sometimes, I can imagine how much pain we
cause Jesus when we turn to everyone but him for help.
Maybe there is
some reason I can't be satisfied with just sitting in church. Maybe it's
because there's more to do than just SIT. So what do you do? The same
thing I am trying to do, the best I can to follow his instructions.
What are his instructions? There are important
steps to reaching higher and you can find instruction on all of them at
the links below.
It Begins with an image series audio teaching by Charlie Rogers
Building up on your foundation written teaching by Charlie Rogers
There is
no such thing as a pew ministry part 1audio by Earl Chiddix
There is
no such thing as a pew ministry part 2 audio by Earl Chiddix
